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in the past , you afraid i will leave you . but in th end , is you leave me ... i know my attitude sucks . you given me alot of chances le . but because i care too much ... hais . now say what also no use le . no matter what i said , or what i do . you wont believe ...

22may is your birthday , is also th day our baby died . i told you . but you dont believe . you dont care . you dont even replied my text . why i have to face this alone ? why ? its too torturing . who can i tell to ? what can i do ? i am getting more and more pessimistic each day . keep thinking that its all lies . still continue smoke , drink coke , eat spicy things . hack care what th doc said . didnt even want to go back scan my body . dun even want to spend th money to do operation , take out th baby . keep hurting my body everyday . make myself suffer everyday .

3months and 20days has pass . and i am still missing you , loving you , wanting you back . but you ? you are happily enjoying life w all your friends ...

why must i suffer all this alone . why ? i got alot of bad thinking . i xiang make you suffer twice th pain i suffer . i xiang kill myself so that my mom will blame you . i xiang make you guilty for life . but i she bu de . i see you sad , i will be more sad . i see you happy , i sad nvm ..

huosheng , i really need you now ...

my moodswing is getting more and more worst . same goes to my appetite . th cramps is getting more and more pain . even pain killers also have no effect . i am getting weaker and weaker . stand for 5minutes jiu buay tarhan le . and i need alot of sleep . keep getting tired easily . i hate my life ttm ! somebody can you please kill me ?!?!

i really wish i can move house to east area . w all my ite friends . only being w them i feel happy , cause they dk my past . knowing them , being w them is like having a new self . having a new life . not like in bp , everyone know my past . know my everything . bad de good de also have . and judge by th past . wont believe ppl will change when they grow older . just like him , i nv lied to him before , but whatever i said , he thinks that i am lying .

JASMINE TAN JIE MIN ! i really hate you ttm !!!

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Went to read your blog ... i miss th past ...

May 11 , 2010
Today is a very very special day~~ I 1st time went out wif my PTGF hahas! xD Although got her frenz and i abit paiseh but hahas was fun xD She was sooo cute~ xD Having a very nice day wif dem hahas... Went to Cozy bay wif dem hahas den after tat went to mac and eat... After eating we came back panjang and i pei her home (: hahas... Msging wif her now and use facebook awhile after tat jiu go slp (:

Your smile was everything i wanted, if i could get your smile by hardwork, why not? (:

May 18 , 2010
Although you wont found my blog or wad but i jus post it... I ardy put full feeling into our relationship le even though i am jus part time... I would really like to tell you this, " you got FTBF le uh? hahas okok den we stop msging or not he jealous (: . " If you really have a full time boyfriend i scare that i cnt sae tis to you coz i will very very she bu de jus let you go like tis ): but nvm no matter wad if you really got other FTBF le i will really still hope and and him really last long and i try to let go you even if i cnt, i wont tell you and keep it to myself (: Ferr now i really really love you very much~ (:

I really scare the feeling of losing you ):

May 20 , 2010
I saw wad you tell mi, after seeing tat my heart felt so sour really really felt so sour ): even now whn typing i still have the feeling... Nvm as a part time w will hlp you de dun scare you wont face it alone (: although i now felt heartache but i will still hlp you till the end till you ask mi to go (: you really jus nid time and determination jiu can le no worries ok? (: wish you dun stress urself too much (:

How long can i stay wif you?

May 24 , 2010
I was keep tinking, yes we both are very sweet to each other but i dunno why i jus got a feeling tat you will anything jus walk away frm mi ): not i dun trust you is jus tat i dunno why i felt tis way... Anyway thanks you Part-time girlfriend ferr everything~ i dunno we can be tgt ferr how long but i will really treasure everytime we have~ (: Whn tat day you are going , pls atleast tell mi b4 you leave so i can bless you (: At here i will really wish tat you will found a guy shuai shuai, quite rich, good character and treat you very very good (: Whn you are with him you will felt really really xinfu (: Jiayoohs hwaiting GF! (:

June 11 , 2010
Back to post le (: Tis few weeks going out wif you and being wif you is really very happy (: Whn i am wif you i felt ta you wont leave mi... But whn i left you ferr work or wad, i jus felt tat you will leave mi anytime coz too many guys are chasing you le... Even though you sae tat you wont like other sg guys except mi, I really believe but i dunno i jus tink i wont suit you. I love you thats why i wont stop you from contacting other guy coz if you really like other guy i will be very happy oso coz i really wan you to be happy (: I dunno why all my ex i jus want to keep dem to mi and guy tok to dem i will super du lan... But ferr you, guys tok to you although i will jealous and heart felt sour, i will still let you chat or msg demcoz if you like dem dn i will leave... I cnt possibly keep you by my side whn you start to hve no feeling ferr mi de (: Last time i keep tell my ex stead tat " I only wan you happy so lik other guy oso can" last time all was bluff de... But now wif you although i will jealous but i really dun mind you like other guy but i only request ferr one thing, if you like other guy jus tell mi the truth ok? I will be fine de i will let you have time wif him or maybe totally let you go wif him but no matter wad really atleast tell you mi like other guy le ok? dun nid felt guilty or wad coz huyman find their own love is rite de i dun have the right to stop you... Although you really wont come see my blog but i will jus write out to let myself feel good (: Whn you like other guy i will start to leave you le although will bu she de but i still will force myslef to leave de (: and no matter wad dun felt guilty oso (: loves...

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