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read your blog today and i miss th past seriously . i really bu xiang shi qu you . i miss th times w you . th time when you are my PTBF . you are my 1st PTBF and my last PTBF ... today text you th question and you replied , find new one bahs ... although hen bu xiang mian dui . but .... T.T 1st time wanna be alone ...



huosheng ,

i really do love you . idk why . 15days without you i still can survuve happily , but deep inside , its pain .. really bu xiang like this jiu end everything . really bu xiang . bu xiang lose you . bu xiang ... wei shen me ni ke yi zen me rong yi jiu fang qi yi qie ? ni bu shi hen ai wo de ma ? ni zen me she de wo zhe me nan guo ? ): ....................................................................

i put on a mask everyday , smiling laughing crazying everyday , dw face th reality , dw to face th fact that you are not by myside . treating everybody as you . imagine th person i text w is you . imagine alot alot alot of things . wo zhen de zuo bu dao ! wo zhen de hen xu yao ni . wo zhen de bu xiang mei you ni .. i need you tonight ... you let me know you are different , you let me know what is xingfu , you let me feel being loved , let me be th only and only in your kingdom , be my rubbishbin when i am sad or stress , be th person to let me flare anger on , let me know what is happy and forget th feel of shilian , let me forget th feel of loneliness , let me know what is family like , teach me how to be more mature , scare i lonely so 247 be by myside , even you hungry still sacrify all you money let me buy cigg eat fullfull , when i emo , you will lend your shoulder for me , when i need you , you will always be there without fail , no matter how tired you are . and alot alot . you are so perfect to me . i hate myself alot . for not cherishing you . wait till you are gone then i regret . i am sorry . and thanks you v much . for giving me 9mths minus 1day de happiness . i am always pessimistic . i really wish to die and forever leave this fking world , leave all this hurts . but idw , i know if i like that , you will hate me more . people say th more you think about th bad things of a person , th more you will hate this ppl and th faster you will forget him . but , there is no bad things about you i cn hate . always i am th one who do stupid things make you angry . but you are th one forgiving me . really really no chance le ? wei shen mo when my thinking is still v childish , you gave me alot of chances , but when my thinking become mature le , i have no more chance . maybe i wasted all th chance le ... i damn fking hate myself uhhs ! i really feel like dying .. really tired of everything le ... how i wish you are here by myside now . wiping my tears off . hug you and cry out loud . and you sayang me say " everything will be alright , i forgive you " i know i am thinking too much ... this things wont happen ... we wont be back tgt anymore . even as a friends also hard ... i really dk what to do next step .... how i wish my life cn end w a fullstop now like how i end this post now .

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